Dear Diary: Tuesdays and Thursdays

A lot has happened in the world, with family and friends in New Zealand I could be writing about the tragic shootings in Christchurch. I have been there one time, and even done freelance work for a shop that’s part of the local community in the city. I am not, because the world is flooded with commentary and analysis It looks like the NZ government has taken real action, plus for the most part the world is rightly shocked, outraged and saddened, on a personal level I cannot help but cry a little at people dying whatever the circumstances. They are a son, a daughter, a friend, let alone a mother, father, or more than that as grandparents and members of communities and workplaces, they are hopes and dreams, comfort never given, wisdom never shared, friendship never enjoyed and all those aspects of life we so easily take for granted. And these acts are all those things ripped away in an instant, how did we get to this, or perhaps with greater accuracy, why haven’t we learned by now.

There are enough words and opinions about what to do, there is enough analysis to paper over any cracks. I am sad on more than one level; sad I cannot help, sad I am helpless about the wider situation, sad I cannot be with my friends or family and sit with them; however at this point I have little more than “thoughts and prayers” and the people I know have those, and in amelioration I can only continue working to be the change I want to see. For the rest, practically, I am a voice among the millions who can do nothing in the immediate sense, and among the much less who see living the change as the way to achieve it.

I also have no desire to become a current affairs blog, so I guess I am stuck being all about me, which means following good advice I should be on a regular publishing schedule. On that one I am staying behind after school at the very least. For a long while it has been my intention to have content publish on Tuesdays and Thursdays; I cannot say why those days, it popped into my head and I liked it, is the best explanation I can give. However, since before I decided this would be a good idea sticking to a regular schedule has been difficult, and doing a Gary Vaynerchuck of multiple pieces of content everyday is something beyond my resources

Tuesdays and Thursdays

A lot has happened in the world, with family and friends in New Zealand I could be writing about the tragic shootings in Christchurch. I have been there one time, and even done freelance work for a shop that’s part of the local community in the city. I am not, because the world is flooded with commentary and analysis, it looks like the NZ government has taken real action, and for the most part the world is rightly shocked, outraged and saddened, on a personal level I cannot help but cry a little at people dying. These are a son, a daughter, a friend, let alone a mother, father, or more than that as grandparents and members of communities and workplaces, they are hopes and dreams, comfort never given, wisdom never shared, friendship never enjoyed and all those aspects of life we so easily take for granted. And these acts are all those things ripped away in an instant, how did we get to this, or perhaps with greater accuracy, why haven’t we learned from this.

There are enough words and opinions about what to do, there is enough analysis already, I am sad on more than one level; sad I cannot help, sad I am helpless about the wider situation, sad I cannot be with my friends or family and sit with them; however at this point I have little more than “thoughts and prayers” and the people I know have those, and in amelioration I can only continue working to be the change I want to see. For the rest, practically, I am a voice among the millions who can do nothing in the immediate sense, and among the much less who see living the change as the way to achieve it.

I also have no desire to become a current affairs blog, so I guess I am stuck being all about me, which means following good advice I should be on a regular publishing schedule. On that one I am staying behind after school at the very least. For a long while it has been my intention to have content publish on Tuesdays and Thursdays; I cannot say why those days, it popped into my head and I liked it, is the best explanation I can give. However, since before I decided this would be a good idea sticking to a regular schedule has been difficult,

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

and doing a Gary Vaynerchuck of multiple pieces of content everyday is something beyond my resources. I wish it wasn’t, it would be great to use Gary’s model of content production, it would be cool to have a life worth vlogging, truth is even my busiest days are often little beyond me and my keyboard/laptop, it will never win a Grammy or entry to Sundance.

While I love the process of creativity, not everything I do leads to something sharable, and within that not everything that could possibly be sharable, even at the extreme borders, is able to go online. At the same time, I don’t have a back up of created material to relatively quickly convert and use. One on the downsides of my former life is that I did not get to create much at all, and so got very out of practice, and that what little I did create did not come with me when I left/was thrown out along with most of my not inconsiderable hoarding. What I blog along with everything I create is original and in the moment; this is highly enjoyable and fun to do, rewarding as can be lengthy too. The net result of this, my ADD traits, health limitations and life as life goes led to a nett situation where I was wrapped up in myself (said it was all about me) and not adequately focused on sharing which is something I enjoy and have wanted to structure and direct for a time.

Procrastination and avoidance of what is actually an enjoyable and rewarding creative element is a little contradictory, but is a good insight into my character and process. I am a Mouse of opposites and dialectical interactions. All of which preamble and diversion led me to understand that it was not a case of I should publish and structure more “squeeks”, but, rather, that I wanted to structure and share more because it was something I found inherently enjoyable and constructive internally and that producing value for a reader was important because my goal was to add value to their life in someway, like the process of creation added value to mine. It would be great to use Gary Vee’s model of content production, it would be cool to have a life that would vlog as content ready to publish with a little editing, however, I spend a lot of time quietly, with laptop, pencil, or doing things only some of which could translate into meaningful content, most of which would not. Documenting at this point is not getting me towards a Sundance worthy documentary at this stage in my life; I am not sure that is even a goal I would have even with the resources either.

While I love the process of creativity, not everything I do leads to something sharable, and within that not everything that could possibly be sharable, even at the extreme borders, is able to go online. At the same time, I don’t have a back up of created material to relatively quickly convert and use. One on the downsides of my former life is that I did not get to create much at all, and so got very out of practice, and that what little I did create did not come with me when I left/was thrown out along without most of my not inconsiderable hoarding. What I blog along with everything I create is original and in the moment; this is highly enjoyable and fun to do, rewarding of course, it can be lengthy too. The net result of this, my ADD traits, health limitations and life as life goes have led to a situation where I was wrapped up in myself (said it was all about me) and not adequately focused on sharing which is something I enjoy and have wanted to structure and direct for a time.

So Tuesdays and Thursdays are not about a grind, they are not about a stick, they are about actively working at chasing happiness. This blog is part of the smorgesboard of things that make me happy, and I have been distracted by life and health issues, I have been overwhelmed by what is overwhelming, and as I face better times, have to take the time to pause, and recognise the changing lansdscape and the new structures of my life. Opportunities to chase happiness look different, the balance has changed, along with everything else. Just as how I chase happiness has changed, the way contribution and influence works has also changed. Change is after all the universal constant and so how everyone persues their own  indvidual picture of happiness will inevitably take on a different look and texture over time

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